Scary Phone Calls

IT's today. yesterday, I created a whole plan with goals and what I wanted to achieve. One of my main goals was to contact an adverstising agency to listen to a song of mine that I think could be great for a certain product. So, this morning, I found myself dreading making the "phone call". I thought up every excuse not to, "waaah, I can't do it, why would they want to talk to me, I need someone to help me" and I realized what a big baby voice that is inside of me. So, I pulled up my bootstraps so tight they gave me a huge wedgie and made the first call, just trying to find the ceo of the company. The girl on the end of the phone in nyc was very nice and when I asked if he had an office there, she said, "he certainly does!" with enthusiasm. Wow, so then I asked if I could be connected to his office and she said, "Of course!" with equal enthusiasm. Then, his office secretary answered the phone and I was petrified, I froze for a second and really, truly, honestly just wanted to hang up!!! but, i didn't......I explained who I was briefly and said I had a wonderful creative idea for one of his clients and she gave me his freakin' email address. I was shocked and at the same time very proud of myself that I had the nerve or ["noive" as the lion in the wizard of oz would have said] to do it. Ok, you might say, "oh, chances are, he won't get back to you anyway" [you're saying this to me in a really nasal, know-it-all voice; i have one of those voices in my head too, so i know how it sounds, thank you very much!]. That may be true. But at least, I did it. And I've been wanting to do it for quite some time, since April, this has been my idea and as we all know, the only way to get a job done is to do it yourself.
So, it's a "feel the fear and do it anyway" kind of day, i mean, year, i mean life. hopefully it will get easier. at least i tried and i won't have died thinking, "if only i would have, blah, blah blah".....
oh, gotta go and make some more phone calls...ciao for now...
lots of love;

m xo